I didn't end up working out last night; Shannon and I ended up going and handing out flyers and posters for the Wax-A-Bear and Stuff a Turkey last night. I didn't end up getting home until almost 9 o'clock. I forgot to eat dinner, so I little pita sammich and then crashed the heck out.
This morning I woke up still tired. I drank some coffee from McDonalds. Probably not the healthiest, but it was non-fat milk, right? It's fine; I'm going to work out tonight, regardless of how tired I am. I might go down to the gym at home and use the elliptical. I still haven't turned in my papers for the gym at work because I forgot to get a lock for a locker there. Maybe if I'm super motivated today, I'll go to Lowe's and pick one up. Otherwise, my only goal for today is to muster up enough energy to work out, even if it's only for a little bit.
On another note, I'm feeling fat today. I saw some of the pictures of me dressed up for the costume contest this weekend and was displeased. Despite looking pretty cute, I still looked extremely chubby. Normally it doesn't bug me. For some reason, I can look in the mirror and see the cute, but when I look at a photo i don't. I look at photos and it's like I'm a different person, one who is much fatter than when I look in the mirror. Is that weird? I don't know. Regardless, it's made me kind of self conscious lately, which is not normal for me. It's a little depressing, but I have to get past that. I can't let it get me down; I have to make it motivate me. This is something I can CHANGE. I just have to work at it. I just have to keep telling myself that.
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